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gdgdbaby wrote a bjyx fic, if you would only let you, where xiao zhan and wang yibo roadtrip through china and finally sort out their feelings. then i will pause, dramatically stare out a window, and remember how i cried my eyes out reading the part where they had an "honest" conversation by the bund in shanghai and the catharsis i felt reading it.
( memories of shanghai under the cut )
it's amazing how much a fic can make you feel. this post ended up being a story of my memories in shanghai and a little bit of a love letter to that one fic and how much it helped me achieve some catharsis from an old wound i never looked at again. since then i've been able to think of shanghai without my heartbreak dominating it, and instead i think of all my friends still in shanghai who i miss dearly. i miss them all the time. i miss shanghai so much. i miss being there, i miss the city, i miss who i was with and without him there. i miss him too but i'll probably see him in hong kong lol. shanghai is still one of the first cities i'll go to once borders up, to find more traces of my family but also because i loved the city, and i'm so grateful for lucy's fic for reminding me all the joy and the sadness that shanghai gave me. sadness, joy, laughter, and tears -- all of it in nine days that felt like a lifetime. i'll see you again one day, shanghai.
nightmares are expensive, but memories are free. -- JJ Lin
( memories of shanghai under the cut )
it's amazing how much a fic can make you feel. this post ended up being a story of my memories in shanghai and a little bit of a love letter to that one fic and how much it helped me achieve some catharsis from an old wound i never looked at again. since then i've been able to think of shanghai without my heartbreak dominating it, and instead i think of all my friends still in shanghai who i miss dearly. i miss them all the time. i miss shanghai so much. i miss being there, i miss the city, i miss who i was with and without him there. i miss him too but i'll probably see him in hong kong lol. shanghai is still one of the first cities i'll go to once borders up, to find more traces of my family but also because i loved the city, and i'm so grateful for lucy's fic for reminding me all the joy and the sadness that shanghai gave me. sadness, joy, laughter, and tears -- all of it in nine days that felt like a lifetime. i'll see you again one day, shanghai.
nightmares are expensive, but memories are free. -- JJ Lin
